giving special treatment to everyone… means that no one is really special to you.

thats how he felt as he stood in his empty apartment. All through out highschool years, he spent all his time trying to catch up to you, you were what he strived to be. The number one. Thats what you were to him. But you treated everyone this way, he was no exception. You smiled at everyone the same way you smiled at him.

after graduation, you continued to make your way to the top, running up at the number 2 hero behind katsuki, who had finally achieved his dream. But what did all of that mean to him if he couldnt even have you? Why wasnt he satisfied after everything he did to climb to the top, all that hard work. You had chased after him all throughout your childhood, and now that you had caught up, you were content with where you were, a stark contrast to how katsuki felt. He had dreams of continuing to compete against you, alongside you, but you had other things in mind.

after a reunion at school, you sat next to him, conversing with everyone like old times, that same old smile never leaving your face. Even as you waved everyone goodbye, not once did that smile falter. Once more, he was reminded that special treatment given to everyone meant that no one was really special to you. On his way back to his apartment, it felt like a chunk of him was missing, unsatisfied and craving more. Craving you.

but how could he tell you that when you treated everyone like this, with the same kindness you gave to him. He set his keys down before contemplating everything. He couldnt help the tears that prickled his eyes.

“Damnit.”

he mumbled as he gripped his shirt, just where his heart was.