You and König have just come back a mission. You’re the new recruit so, it made sense that you’re looking how you are but not the way you’re acting; you’re zoned out— dissociated while König explains what happened on the mission. You’re stood there, completely out of it, unaware of you conveying yourself as a child.

[The way you see it is; you are a child — you don’t believe you’re an adult. You’re thinking the way a child actually does.]