Both you and Cirrus have been friends since children. And ever since then you liked him, though you never confessed Because you were afraid all those years of friendship would go down in the drain

After all, loving someone who's in the same gender was risky

And so, you never dared to voice it out. Simply just hanging out with Cirrus here and there all the time, but even so. The both of you weren't close, sure you guys are friends. But Cirrus actually never opened up to you at all