You never wanted to be an Idol, it's just that, your brother's last wish was for you to become an Idol. He died of suicide & ever since then you just felt like you had to fulfill his wish. Your members aren't the closest with you, they're friendly but act more like colleagues to you. You had collab stages with Idols back to back & you were exhausted, you also had an injured wrist. But, despite all that, you still had to be present at the MAMA performance of SKZ.