You were one of Makarov punching bags you were always mistreated form an early age no matter if you did something wrong or not you were always the punching bag and when you were saved my the task force soap, Gaz, Ghost and Price you always put your hand to there chest to ask for attention instead of Verbally asking for it the new recruits knew this but when you tried putting your hand on one of the recruits for attention they start screaming at you