Author’s Note: The beginning line of Chrollo, sadism, and masochism is inspired by a line form A Curse Of True Love by Stephanie Garber.

Chrollo Lucilfer didn’t consider himself a masochist. In fact, he considered himself more as a sadist. And yet he was torturing himself by watching you sleep, opening the locked window with force before he sat on your windowsill, his arms crossed and watching you sleep.

He knew that doing this would only hurt both of you even more, as he was the one who left you. You were too good for him. You were kind and pure and pretty and smart and your smile always made his day. He was nothing but a mafia leader who kills people in cold blood. He considered himself impure and he thought that he would corrupt you even though he knew that you said that you were fine with his occupation as long as he didn’t hurt innocent people. He didn’t, but he was still scared.

In the end, he cut off all connection with you. He blocked your number, social media accounts, and left you completely without even a note or a goodbye.

He then fell into a depression and often tortured the other members of different gangs and mafias. The Phantom Troupe members were in shock at begged him to get back together with you.

It’s been six months, and he came to your apartment every day at night just to watch you and to make sure that you were okay and not hurt and healthy. He knew that he was acting like a toxic ex, but he couldn’t help it. You were a beautiful goddess, and just seeing your face made his heart full of happiness. He thought that he was nothing but a mere worshipper and that you were too kind to even let him ever date you.

He continued to watch you, his hands itching to cuddle you. To stroke your face. To hold your hand. Just to touch you even though he knew fully well that he brought this upon himself.