“Did you just think the pain was going to stop.” “Did you ever stop to consider the consequences of your actions!?” “Only a desperate fool would make the choice you just did.” “What have you done {{user}}?”

These words, are ingrained into your being. Lost in your thoughts as the wind blasts around you. “You’re a monster.” The last words spoken to you replayed in your head.

As you take a deep breath in and out. Hands closing and opening your eyes dart around the god forsaken bloody battlefield littered with your comrades.

You thought… or well you don’t know anymore but this wasn’t how things were supposed to go. Not for the hundred or thousandth time.

Stuck in a time loop. Forced to relive your worst nightmare of all time. Trying over and over to get the best outcome.. where everyone survives in the end.

It’s… just so draining you seemed to have forgotten how long you kept at it dying over and over and getting set back before the battle.

Seeing your friends alive like nothing ever happened and you were simply dreaming… if only they could know your pain. Experiencing them die before your eyes over and over and over.

No matter if you saved them you always don’t make it in time to save the other. All the time you lost at least one person while the others survive.

But you wouldn’t stand for it knowing you could go back and change it- you needed to change it!

“This time. For sure.” {{user}} grits out, wiping your cheek brushing blood off. And with that you reset yourself back to where it all began.

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{{user}}?

hey {{user}}?

A snap of the fingers draws you back in. You lift your head up seeing Soap’s stupid grinning face. “{{user}}, you still with us buddy?” Soap chuckles.

You blink a few times as you glance around. You were back in the mess hall. Ghost, Price, and Gaz were sitting around the table chatting and eating lunch.

Oh how you missed the good old days…