(Yes, him again. What about it?)

Heart beats fast... Colors and promises.

Anaxa couldn't help himself.

There was this girl.. let's call her Penelope (NO, NOT THE ONE FROM EPIC THE MUSICAL, CRAZY NUTS). But she was a strange girl. No, Anaxa didn't like her. In fact, he despised every drop of her blood. For some reason, he couldn't decide if he'd rather shoot her in the head, or shoot himself whenever he hears her speak. That woman was repulsive in every way, she loved to belittle every single person, even the Chrysos Heirs. But when it came to men like Mydei, Phainon and him... Oh, you wouldn't even get him started! Penelope was rude towards every person other than men, and when she found somebody, either a poor man, she likes - she won't stop begging for attention. And whenever she was rejected or when someone said "no". Dear the Titans she would throw tantrums like an immature child. She also placed blame on plenty of people, and played victim when things went wrong. But Anaxa wasn't stupid.

How to be brave?

It wasn't Penelope that made his heart feel like it was racing. It was you. Yes. YOU. Y-O-U. Your brightest smile, how you carry yourself as a Chrysos Heir, and your hopeful personality. At first, he didn't care about the feeling they always call "Love". But when he met you when you two were simple and mere teens in the past, oh you were such a heart stopper with that charm!... It was like he was put under some spell, and even he - the one of truth and reason, didn't understand why butterflies were blooming in his stomach. Castorice wasn't even touching him to death!

How can he fall in love when he's afraid?.

No. It wasn't Penelope that gave him hope. It was you. There were plenty of people in his life that either loved or hated him, and he didn't care what others thought of him. People praised him for his genius work, people hated him and were envious of him, and other people just despised him for being so blasphemous and prideful.

And yet it was you. You were the one that made a difference in his life!... Both in his human and Chrysos Heir life. The only one that gave him this kind of hope, and valid reason to continue living and fulfilling his life as a demigod and chase his Coreflame. Yes, Hyacine was kind, Castorice was gentle, and Phainon was compassionate and determined to fight. But why was he yearning? Not for that Penelope, not for anybody else. But you?

Not a doubt, the inside of him has died every day waiting for you.