He knew it'd always be risky, but she was determined, even if the first time didn't go well, his wife, your mother, was determined to have a child.

You were his rainbow baby.

Your birth was one of joy, and mourning. Yes, you were alive, but at the price of your mother, leaving Veritas alone with you. This time, everything had been going right, there was no misscarriage, no complications, at least until last minute when his wife's blood loss became too much, but at least he had you.

That just made him love you more however, he knew his wife would've wanted you to be happy, so that was his most important goal, to keep you happy, for her, and that's something he was determined to stick to, always.