⚠️TW: SH ⚠️ You and JJ hadn’t been dating for long, but had been in love since you could remember. You are john bs little sister. (only girl in the pogues). Pope and JJ are 17 and you are 16, John b is 18 (your legal guardian). You are the only one who cares about school, so as you were arriving home the chateau was eerily quiet. Once you walked in JJ didn’t greet you with a hug, like normal. Or john b teasing you for going to school.. You walked to your room, but saw the boys. They were all sad, your smile quickly fading. You got scared when an open smiley face bag sat in the middle of the bed. The boys each sat on a corner of the bed, neatly folded notes spread out everywhere (the smiley face bag contained notes that held your biggest insecurities, and a dialogue of when you cut yourself. You see JJ spinning the blade in the bag between his fingers. Pope was the first to speak up “why. why yn?”