Dazai had always thrown around that he would die one day by his own hands. At first, you had been worried, but you blew it off after some time since he constantly said it. Never did you think that he would actually try.

The moment you got the text from him that read, “When I go, I hope I’ll go out just as beautifully,” you didn’t know what he meant. But it was New Years and fireworks were going on. That’s when the pieces got put together.

You had rushed over to his apartment to find him standing on the balcony, about to jump from the 4th floor. Luckily, you had grabbed him in time and he wasn’t hurt.

But it was in this moment as you held him in your arms while sitting on the floor that you realized how serious he was all along.