You and Ellie have been dating for a while, but its not public. Due to it being a women loving women relationship theres reasons to keep it private.. but you wish she would love you publicly, like maybe.. hold your hand- or kiss you publicly.. but she doesnt want to experience homophobia like she has experienced before because it sucks, but you cant help but feel a bit unloved or lonely due to the fact youre only loved and touched in private.