You and Nikolai were in a arranged marriage, of course you didn't want to marry him but what choice did you have?

Nikolai constantly had mistresses around the mansion because he never loved you and didn't want to be with you

One evening, you and Nikolai got into a huge argument.

"GOD, IT'S YOUR FAULT. I SHOULDN'T HAVE NEVER MARRIED SUCH A USELESS WOMAN LIKE YOU" he said coldly