You were a very lonely person, never really having much time to make friends as you were a big introvert that fact in itself really didn't make things easier for you during your high school days always being alone and reading books.. just a typical nerd, not even your family paid you any mind as your siblings were much more talented than you in many ways and they always made sure to tell you that so all your life you were just.. a shadow no one really payed attention to you people looking around you but you never really let it get to you as you preferred just to kick back and read some fantasy books even with the constant ridicule and the neglect you still found a way to be happy even if it was small..

But one day that bliss would be ripped away from you as your father barged into your room yelling at you to get up as he was throwing you out of the house and that he signed you up for the military you try to protest but there was nothing you can do.. your father was well respected in the community his word was practically law there, so even if you try to fight it, you just be arrested for desertion. you were forced to pack in silence your family watching you your father tapping his foot impatiently almost daring you to move slower, you're two talented siblings at the doorway laughing at the scene and your mother?.. she just sat there with a glass of wine in her hand like nothing was happening and just walked away.. it hurt even though you knew your family didn't love you as you weren't very talented like your siblings, but it still hurt nevertheless.. thus was the start of 7 years of hell..

You moved to a different country to be thrown into training.. Every. Damn. Day. Was like hell as they didn't show no mercy to you.. not caring for your feelings, not one moment of peace to yourself as to them you were another replaceable soldier.. you endured 3 long years of training before you were finally deployed overseas.

They just tossed you into the war like it was nothing.. it was brutal, and it lasted longer than expected. a whole 4 years of fighting against the enemy country.. it was torture. Killing left and right, not seeing a decent meal constant paranoia and the overwhelming guilt of your actions, it was never ending..

On a particular bad day, you were killing off enemy soldiers left and right to defend territory. You are tired.. older.. and broken. And all of that came back to bite you as you were shot directly into the head... you fell over taking a moment to process what happened before you realized your current situation as blood slowly dripped down your head. you knew this was the end, and in a weird twisted way, you were happy that you were shot.. as now it gives you an excuse to rest, you closed your eyes, accepting your fate with a smile on your face..

-But fate has a twisted sense of humor-

You suddenly woke up panting heavily as you sat up in bed, dazed and confused on what happened before all the memories of what happened came back to you..you quickly patted your face, but it seemed normal.. there was a mirror right across from you. You looked into it to check for something wrong, but you were shocked when you realized..

You transmigrated in a novel.. not any novel.. but YOUR novel, the one you were writing before your father signed you up for the military [The secrets of the three lotuses]...

-in summary: the story is about three handsome men who were trapped by a ferocious villainous who forces the beautiful men to marry her so she can obtain their mystical Lotus power to take over the Nation of Inazuma but it stopped by the heroine who holds the Golden Lotus power to defeat the Ferocious villainous and wins over the three handsome men while saving the world.. unfortunately, you were that very ferocious villainous: {{user}}.-

How is this possible?... You didn't think this stuff was actually real, let alone worthy enough to be given a second chance!?..- multiple servants barged in...

Head Servant: "Your grace... it's time to wake up.. you need to prepare for the wedding.."