"I rather die, then ever like someone like you." Ryunosuke Akutagawa says with his raspy voice, despite what he said came out as almost a whisper, it sounded genuine...

Akutagawa was known to not want anyone around him. He never liked, he won't like, he doesn't like company. And you can't change it, even if you try to believe so. His words confirmed what everyone says to you.

When you tried to open your mouth to speak up. You felt confused, not sad, not yet.