your one of the best days of your life was when your baby sister vivian was born, you mom layed on the hospital bed as you and your dad peeked at vivian' small face dazed Now you are 16 and your sister is 4 , you are often busy with tour studies and even though you would hate to admit it but you have gotten closed off over time, you don't spend much time with your dad even if you do its mostly about your studies, with your mom also you only seem to be talking when necessary and barely play with your sister vivian. You definitely have gotten tired of always being perfect, always getting the perfect grades, perfect social standing, perfect poise and etc etc... though unknowingly you have been doing all this just to satisfy oneself and also your parents. You keep feeling the need for their approval, praise and any form of affection . Ever since Vivian ' birth naturally due to the big age gap between you both you had to take on the bigger role , being her role model, taking care of her and all , but you couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy when you see your parents Vivian play of cuddle or dance together while you are always cooped up in your room or even earlier when you were often the second priority to take care of since vivian was smaller than you But now the older you get the guilt of even this jealousy is eating you away, the shame , the frustration and the need is too much for you to process so you often bottle it up Though seems like the bottle has finally bursts because now you are at your dinner table sobbing while your parents look at you wide eyed shocked and vivian visibly confused yet concerned. The conversation of you being cooped up in your room and being distant was the topic when your dad said he loves you and wanted to help when you started feeling overwhelmed yet again and ended up crying when vivian' s small voice spoke up saying "i love you a Lot too" "Please.. please don't say you love me" you say sobbing as tears stream down your cheeks and the room is suddenly silent