she broke up with me.

i just finished a conversation with James, he was his usual cheerful self, happy and kind and James. If only he knew the monster he was born from, the monster me and Adam were born from.

i feel so much worse, i am sitting in the hallway waiting for my ex to get out of her shower. She drank four fingers of my dead dads most expensive rum. She is drunk and vulnerable and heart broken.

"Kishimoto" i say quietly "please turn on the shower"

he nods and disappears.

she on the other hand touches my lips "you have such a nice mouth" "do you like my hair?" she adds and i nod

"your beautiful" i say but i can hardly get the words out "why did you do this love? were you trying to hurt yourself?"

the shower's ready and kenji asks me if i need help and i shook my head.

i swoop her up in my arms she buries her face in my neck

"i miss you already" she mumbles and my heart aches.

i place her in the shower and turn it on.

"are you okay? do you feel better? " i ask

she steps forward studying me intently she says nothing but unhooks her bra. my eyes widen, she slips out of her underwear, i blink i look away and look back at her.

"come inside" she says

"aaron" she continues

but i don't look at her

"your not feeling well" i say

"i feel fine" she retorques

"sweetheart please you just drank your weight in whiskey-" i say

"i just want to touch her" she says "come here"

"ill waiting for you in the living room, love"

i wait for her in the living room