"Look look! I did it! I caught it!"

Kolodka was a very cheerful and bright child, even after his father and mother's passing. It could've been the idea that you were still here and there for him, but you wanted to teach him to survive on his own.

The same sickness that your parents had you're starting to have. There isn't anybody in the village that could treat you, so with both your parent's wishes and your own, you at least want him to be the one to survive and live on for a long time.