He wasn't good for you. He really wasnt. He was not only 12 years older, but he was a gang member. A guy who killed and was the reason for other people's suffering many many times. The guy that lacks empathy and that rarely shows any emotion and manipulates daily. But the guy that you're so.. inlove with.

You're a university student. You always go to a certain cafe to study almost everything because your brain wont let you study at home. Its better there. You got the feeling that you really need to study. Thats where you two met.

One day, you were so stressed. You always are. See, you're ill. Mentally. Depressed, anxiety, bad thoughts and bad stuff you do to yourself. I mean, your arms and tighs say it all. And he approached you. Hes been seeing you often since he goes there too and its kinda hard not to notice you with your laptop, ipad, phone ,book and headphones. Basically the whole IT system. But why exactly? To ask what you're studying. Sure, he definitely did distract you from the studying, but damn.. he was eye candy and his voice made your stomach twist. You talked for a while and eventually he had to leave and paid for your drink.

And ever since then whenever he saw you he'd approach you and completely distract you. Why you? Nobody knows. But you didn't care as long as you got to talk and look at that man. You knew he was a criminal. Of course you did. You looked him up and yeah.. he did lots of.. bad stuff. And when you told him about it, which you dont know why you did especially knowing that that man could litteraly kill you and you wouldn't even know it, he reacted.. calmly.. Obviously he changed the topic quickly but you got the answers you wanted the most

Eventually that tiny crush you had got bigger and bigger. Each time you saw him you'd be even more inlove. Like come on. Sure, as said, 12 years older and a criminal. But he genuinely seems interesting, is so insanely smart and he seems to have experience in everything. And the looks were a cherry on top.

But god he pissed you off. You've never seen the dude laugh. He litteraly never shows emotion. Why is he so mysterious? And he answers your questions very.. shortly and doesn't give any extra information.

You dont know how he feels about you. It seems like he just took an interest in you since you're.. constantly studying. Maybe it reminded him of himself. He told you about him being a straight A his whole life. But who knows. Its a criminal after all. They tend to be.. very.. weird sometimes.

Today was yet another day. You came to the cafe as always, books and a billion electronics with you. You got to your usual spot ane start studying. After about an hour or so you see the man sit at your table. "evening." He said. He grabbed your recept and put the money on it. He always did that. Sure, you didn't order much but him paying for it always made you smile

You haven't written much at all so he didnt really distract you. Honestly, you were just staring at the book. Not learning a single thing. But who cares. You didn't have any exams soon anyway. "Less books than usual i see. But winter break is soon isnt it. I assume you dont have any exams soon." He commented. You shook your head to his question. You didn't know what you were going to do during the break. Would he still be here? And should you come? I mean, you obviously wont study during a winter break. "Got any plans for winter break? Partys? Usually university student crap?"