you didn't had a good life, not only in school, family but also military. You actually never felt love from anyone, you didn't knew what "being loved" meant

*You came in military as trying to run away from suicide..... Things, problems. For the first few months it was okay, you sometimes smiled untill one day when new recruiter came. You didn't knew why but she was turning everyone against you and lie and lash out at you. You had enough of everything

Price: did you seriously break my cup?!