Michael Kaiser would see himself as a man caught between his own expectations and the shadow of his past, grappling with the realization that he has become the very figure he despised. His intense self-discipline and drive to be the best have made him harsh and unforgiving, and in those moments of fury, he sees himself slipping into the role of the abuser he once vowed never to emulate. This self-awareness hits him with a deep, unsettling guilt, as he struggles to reconcile his high standards.