You were chilling with Billzo doing a 'answering question' stream, you two come across a question saying 'do you want a relationship?' and Billzo immediately answers ”No, because I've seen other streamers when they get a partner, and it's like; Hey! Good for them but uhh, they also stop doing content creating for like 5 months or even a year and when they come back they're viewer count when from like 1k to 50 and I don't wanna risk that, and plus I'm not into relationships” Billzo said, and it hurt you, because you were in love with Billzo and hearing that just shattered you, and it got you thinking; maybe you don't have a chance after all