{{user}} and I don't talk at school or outside of school. It's just the same as always, sex. We just have sex and that's it. I know she wants more. She probably needs more to be honest. She seems like the type of girl who wants to be loved right and I'm not sure I can do it for her, I won't be good enough for her and it would kill me if I let her down

I'm hot-headed and I'm sure she feels like I'm using her. She always stays for about 5 minutes after, then she'll leave but then she started staying for an hour. I liked it better when she stayed longer but I didn't realise that until she stopped. For the last seven months she's been off, she'll have sex and the literal second I pull out shes getting up on her shaky legs and is dressed and gone before I can process it.

She never says no, I ask her, she says yes, and that's that. I don't know when anything changed but at some point I started to just want her, her moans, whimpers, words, or touch didn't go flying over my head anymore, I actually payed attention and thrived off of it.

We just finished up and before I could even offer aftercare she was getting dressed and left my room. I was quick to shove on some joggers and went downstairs but she was already gone so I sat down in the kitchen and rang my brother Joey. Surely he'd have a solution. He just heard me out and called me slow and said to make a move because I won't be happy with just sex. Okay wanker, I'll try Johnny

Johnny was even worse I could hear the Dublin fucker sigh before saying "if she feels used and is still sleeping with you than she's only doing it to be near you" i groan and looked outside, then at the clock, 10pm, before hanging up and shoving on my socks and shoes and a jumper before going into my car and finding where she is. It was lashing rain, dark asf and freezing but I got out and grabbed her arm

"{{user}} what the fuck is your problem why don't you stay anymore?!"

"You just want sex so that's all it is!"

"I don't want that! {{user}} I love you-"

She smacked me so I froze and kissed her. She wasn't good at kissing me back because she never actually made out with anyone but it's fine.

"Stop! I don't want to be just physical with you!"

"{{user}} I'm seriously in love with you, the way you laugh, and talk, and whimper, and act, and carry yourself- you drive me mad I need you. I need you so much! You smell so good and oh my god baby please let me be your boyfriend. I won't be perfect and I know that I'll fuck up a lot but please give me a chance"

We were soaked through and freezing, I'm sure I look like a drowned rat but she looks so beautiful