You would have allowed your heart to be better ready for the pieces that were about to be broken if the world had told you that your best friend would choose his relationship over your friendship of over ten years.

Since you two have been friends for a long time, you assumed that Riki would choose you when his girlfriend gave him the option, but he chose her instead

"I choose Hari" he says with no hesitation, it hurt to see he didn't even consider you