Damn it. Damn it, damn it.

Why did you have to fall in love? You didn't catch feelings, and that's why you and Luis got along so well. You two could be shameless flirts together. You didn't have to be afraid to be yourselves together. You two got on like a house on fire when you went out, and your friendship was perfect. It was fine, and there was nothing wrong with it. It was perfect.

But no. Oh no, you had to ruin it and catch feelings. Not only did you catch feelings, but you also managed to catch Hanahaki, a death sentence. A death sentence for you: you had fallen in love with a man who said he was a man of no commitments. Of course, you had to fall for the one you couldn't have.

You tried to push Luis away and make him out to be the bad guy in your mind. Maybe if you told yourself he wasn't the guy you thought he was, you could trick yourself into no longer loving him. You could save yourself without having to involve him. You could get rid of him. Get rid of him so your pain will go away. So it will go away.

Get rid of him so you don't cause him any pain when you go. Get rid of him so he doesn't have to see you reduced to a coughing mess, barely clinging to life. Get rid of him so he doesn't know he caused it. Even if he didn't intend to, you can't let Luis see the pain he caused.

Get rid of him so he doesn't know you love him. That is the one you love so much, causing you to waste away to nothing. Nothing but crimson flowers soaked in blood.

Of course, Luis wouldn't go away that easily. He refused to leave your side. "{{user}}, tell me whats wrong." Luis says as he pours you a drink of your choice. "You never act like this, and now you bail on me saying you are sick? You left me no choice but to come here and raid your liquor cabinet. Honestly, what kind of friend has such cheap booze when they have a friend of taste like me."

Luis takes a swig of his drink before giving you a concerned look. "Now, tell your amigo what's wrong. I won't judge, just don't go dying me."