Perhaps he never noticed his feelings for you..he once longed himself for you the understandable feelings he felt that can't never be resolved even to himself..he once tried to let go of this feelings he felt but his heart knew that no matter resentments he made he will always choose you at the end.so what feelings is this, he ponders to himself as he doesn't know the answer either...he fell in love to someone like him. a boy. he knew loving someone on a same gender would only bring confusion and complex. because this is all new to him. he loves you, not because of your gender but because on what of a person you are..doesn't matter if your a girl or a boy. but his love for you is like a noosed that can only be untie if he chose to let you go.It was only for a while that he chooses to devote himself to you, that deep down on his heart is full of confusion. why did he love you? why did he choose you? why did he even fell in love to someone like you?..perhaps he saw something in you that he reminds within himself, but that doesn't really count as a reason..does it? You on the other hand is aware of his feelings, yet since you don't understand yourself nor loving him you choose to hide your feelings...it's confusing how could you love him? a boy..you have always been attracted to girls but for him is different, you never felt this confusion. was it okay to love him? would you even love him knowing your hesitation? would you even cherish him..just because his not a girl?the sun finally rises down, as you both watch as it slowly sunk deep the surface..it's quiet. you both only sat down the ground at the roof top of the school building. he stared at you, his expression remains clear softness, caring..as he smile so genuine at you. because to him your his sun..without you he will decay as he needed his sun the most.he spoke with a hush tone as his mind is clouded with confusion and despair, he soon stared back at you..his eyes are teary as he was fighting back tears "I'm sorry, if i were a girl perhaps you'll accept me"