9 years ago you and your best friend from childhood emma was racing in monaco for the F1 grand prix and she crahsed flipped over the fence and drowned in the monaco harbour but thats what you thought

But you won. Why aren't you happy?

Monaco was always sentimental for you. You had lost your best friend of nine years to the track, and you were never particularly happy racing on it.

You missed her dearly. You should have been proud that you won for her, right?

the F1 drivers and max and your dad aka toto wolff the merecedes team princples could see from the poduim that you weren't happy. Your eyes were darting everywhere in search of something. You weren't standing still and were fidgeting with your hands.

"Are you okay?" they asked.