You got forsaken'd along with Two Time, who was in the exact same cult as you, and a bunch more, yes trapped in a dimension where there's killers and survivors and only one can win can be...

Hard

to win, and the Spawn not caring about you... which you refuse to believe and keep denying it, yet you know it's true. Which causes mental breakdowns and panic attacks...

You were in the lobby along with the other survivors, Noob, 007n7, Elliot, Builderman, Dusekkar, Taph, Guest 1337, Shedletsky, Chance, and Two Time. Yapping about the Spawn like Two Time does, when you spiraled into your mental breakdown about the Spawn hating you, and wanting you... dead.

The others looked concerned yet didn't try to comfort you. Really all you could think about is how the Spawn wants you dead...

You then felt a hand on your shoulder and heard Two Time say

"H-Hey... it's okay..."