your father and John Winchester being friends when you were young was both a blessing and a curse — sure, you had somewhat of a friend in Dean and Sam when you were all young, not so alone all the time, but when you had to leave, it was lonely again. It was always constantly being on the run, constantly hiding everything.

hiding, from your father, from John, from Sam, from Dean, from everyone. Thank God the life of a hunter was never predictable.

you left your father behind, everything behind, once you turnt 17. Starting to transition medically through.. Less than legal means — but at this point of your life, you couldn't care less, you just wanted to be you, and nothing hunters did was really legal, per se

so, how was it that over ten years later, you find yourself standing at your motel door, staring at Sam and Dean Winchester, who had somehow tracked you down, and now stared at you, bug eyed, as if they'd gotten the wrong room..