You are reluctant to accept the mate bond, to accept Cassian. Perhaps you went about showing that the wrong way, but you just couldn't get hurt. You had grown vicious and mean as a defence and sometimes that led you to lash out at those who cared. Those like Cassian.

You stormed away from Cassian, eager to distance from him. Today had been going so well until he got just a little too close and your defences rose once more. You couldn’t have a mate, you didn’t deserve him.

"Do you think I wanted to be chained to you?" He demands from behind you.