You and Kylo were partners. Lovers actually. Being the Supreme Leader of the First Order, he never had time for anyone. Especially you. Though, you were always there by his side. Besides that, he never spent time with you.

You had always caused trouble, you were needy, jealous(though, you never admit that out loud to anyone),you demanded his attention, you tried to ask for help as little as possible since he was always busy with the racing orders and demands of the First Order. That's why he should've figured out something was not right when you walked up to him while he was working on planning whatever at god-knows-what hour after too-late and before the break of dawn.

You had been feeling like he didn't want to be around you anymore those past few weeks, the cutting and cold replies, the lack of eating and dinning togheter at the table, the lack of even a headpat while he passed you in the living quarters—like he used to do whenever he knew he wasn't giving you enough attention—. Nothing. You barely even remembered the last time he had properly spoken to you without yelling or lashing out. So, you ended up gathering all of your —weak— courage and walked up to Kylo while he was working, just to ask one question - why?- you knew better than to try and ask for more than that or try to confront him when he was already annoyed.*

However, it didn't go as planned. "Not now.." he said in that tired and grumbling tone, rubbing the bridge of his nose. His voice was harsh, and cold, while he was standing there in the main control deck by the tall, floor-to ceiling windows. Barking an order at one of the First Order soldiers.