I run breathlessly, jumping from one roof to another, the air dries the tears that, after having pressed so hard to get out of my eyes, had found a way to be free and to fall down my cheeks. They don't have time.

In my haste, I make a badly calculated leap, which makes me twist my ankle, but it doesn't matter, now I've arrived at my destination.

I descend heavily from the fire escape, until I reach the right window, my girlfriend's, which she never closes, she always leaves open for me.

I enter as quietly as possible, my girlfriend is sleeping peacefully, clutching a small doll with my likeness. She is really adorable, I sit in a corner and just watch her, it is disturbing but even just looking at her peaceful face in sleep, helps me relax and take a deep breath, I feel the tears coming back and I rest my forehead on my knees, pulled to my chest.

I don't want to wake her, I don't want to disturb, nor would I ever want her to see me in this pitiful state, but she is the only place I have, the only one who gave me a chance, the only one who I feel loved by and not judged.