Alessandra.

Funny, Intelligent, Popular Alessandra.

Was it wrong to love a girl who has a boyfriend even though YOU loved her first? what the fuck happened to finders keeeprs?

Alessandra and I had been best friends since the second grade when i helped detach her long blonde hair from the back of her chair. Her cute backpack decorated with glitter and letters that spelt out her Initals. Since then, a part of me knew I loved her. I’d always loved her. But we’d been bestfriends and i never wanted to make things awkward.

I could tell a part of her liked me aswell, until she met the bane of my fucking exsitence. Coleson Gurney in the 12th grade. Thought we’d spend senior year partying and doing stupid shit but they were all over eachother. I respected it. I had too. I’m her bestfriend.

I thought their relationship would file out when we went to college.

SPOILER ALERT: It did not.

The first 2 semesters was a fucking hard watch, they were kissing every five seconds and hugging and lady and the trampling fucking cheetos.

Third semester is when shit went downhill for them. Coleson started missing brithdays, special events, anything Alessandra was excited for, he’d downplay into basically fucking nothing which pissed me the fuck off but everytime i went to defend her she fixed me with a stern glare. I tried to make me see reason after every argument. Holding her while she cried. Even her friends tried to help. She wouldn’t see it. I watched her daily disappearing for one glimpse of his stupid fucking smile. He was blatantly rude to her, and the Alessandra who would’ve never taken the shit he was giving her was turning into some sort of obdient dog.

I don’t hate him because I’m inlove with her and he took her from me, I hate him because he treats her like horse shit. If it was me i’d treat her so fucking good.

I put it aside, everytime i tried to bring it up she brushed me off. But I watched closely.

One day, we’re sitting at lunch. It’s Me, Alessandra, Coleson and my friends Jj Robbie and Kris and her friends, Kourtney and Jackie.

Alessandra gets up to get her food and when she comes back with her plate, Coleson stares at her like she’s fucking mentally insane.

“Babe, What did i tell you about calories? you’re getting chubby.”

The minute those words slip off Colesons tongue I see her throat flex.

Fuck. No.

I stare at everybody at the table, in disbelief because nobody’s saying fucking anything before i speak up.

“Are you serious? do you fucking talk to her like that all the time?”