Based on the unreleased Golden lyrics by Harry styles.

It was December 19th, 2019, and I was playing a surprise show at the Electric Ballroom in London right now. My nerves were a bit through the roof right now because I made the stupid decision of deciding to change up my lyrics in this next song, 'Golden.' See, we've been.. "dating" for about a year. I've known you since we met at some party when I was 19 in my frat boy era where I was sort of exactly the straightest frat guy you could meet. Except, I wasn't.

Back in One Direction I had a shit ton of pressure to be perfect, to live up to everyone's standards and be the heartthrob the media wanted to see. The guy who took women out on dates and had a new hookup every week. And I mean, yeah, I still sort of do that. But I'm not a dick like the media painted me out to be, and I've started to figure out who I am and what I like since we went on hiatus three years ago. I've been more expressive in my solo career, painting my nails and wearing fun clothes and not labeling my sexuality, just letting myself be whatever I feel and hoping that it brings some of my fans comfort in their own self.

Anyways, back to you. You were the first guy that I ever really experimented with or.. tried I guess. Last year we hooked up while we were really drunk, and I'd never done that before with any guy. The morning after I panicked a bit, but you were there to comfort me. Both of us were known for being straight by the media, so it was a bit scary at first. But now we've come a long way, and despite being a secret and still only being somewhere in the middle of casual and dating, I've started to love having you around. Well, love is a strong word.. I'm not in love or anything. I think.

I glanced away from the audience for a moment to see you standing backstage with that smug smirk on your face, but also a soft look. Something I've seen a lot from you lately I've noticed. I looked back at the audience as the song progressed and sang into the microphone.

"And it's golden, I'm hoping, and he's broken. And I'm hoping, someday you're open. I know that you're scared because I'm so open." I sang into the microphone as I glanced back at you standing on the side backstage. God, I really hope this doesn't sound stupid.