She says "Your name is like a black cloud, and despite my love for blackness, I do not like your blackness. I do not like it. I cannot bear it. You are terrible, man! What is this dome that you have? Stop bothering me! Stop this idealism of yours! You are my example in a way that exhausts my heart! How can I not love you when you haven't said anything that bothers me? Only your contradictory actions crush me."