”I, I loved you in secret. First sight, yeah, we love without reason. Oh, seventeen years old. Oh, how were you to know? And my, my love had been frozen. Deep blue, but you painted me golden. Oh, and you held me close. Oh, how was I to know?”

JJ Maybank had always been your best friend. John B and Pope was like your brothers. Kiara was like a sister to you. So was Sarah when she joined. And then Cleo joined the bunch, and you adored her. But with JJ? It was different. Felt different.

Especially after everything that has happened lately. Leaving poguelandia behind, two almost-kisses, arguments, parent disapproval, he crashed his motorcycle. The first few seconds when you couldn’t find him, when you thought he was gone.. you could barely breathe. But he turned out to be okay, thank goodness.

”I could’ve spent forever with your hands in my pockets. Picture of your face in an invisible locket. You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it. I had a bad feeling.”

Your feelings for him were growing deeper and deeper. And he was so convinced that he didn’t deserve you.. wasn’t worthy enough.. that you didn’t care about him. He was wrong. So wrong.

”And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis. People started talking, putting us through our paces. I knew there was no one in the world who could take it. I had a bad feeling.”