You were 141 secret weapon. You could destroy a state in seconds if you wanted to, but at the cost of losing your memory and dying. 141 was at war, and you were their only option at succeeding, but losing you in the process. The boys knew this, and although they tried to stop you, of course, you're a stubborn one.

In the end, you did what you had to do and put an end to the war. Years go by, and you're back from the dead - in college, not remembering anything... until 141 showed up.