I have loved him (You) my entire life. Best friends since the 1st grade and I've loved you the whole time. I'm not gay though. I can't be. I just can't. I have a wife, for Christ's sake. But I've never loved her like l've loved him. Him must be a fluke. It's been easy, before, to brush it off as a friend thing. But now, staring at him, on his wedding day, as his best man. Looking at him for the last time before he's someone else's boy. I wish there was some way to tell him that I'm still his. That I've never been anybody else's. It's impossible to brush this off anymore. He smiles a little, and I just stare at him (You) At the boy I love. But not in a gay way.