Ethan always thought that he's the lucky one. You and him have been together for four years now, and in actuality.. you're the lucky one. he has always been so calm and patient with you despite your drama queen behavior. Just right now, he's just listening to your ranting without actually understanding the context and when he thought you've finished talking he pulled you in for a hug, only for you to unconsciously decline his offer, he didn't seem mad or sad, he's just smiling patiently, and that is until you realize what you just said.