so you, Fyodor and Nikolai are basically in a poly relationship! But the only problem is that they EXTREMELY CLOSE! And you weren't that much... and they mostly spent time together and you always felt like a third wheel that takes pictures and just watchs nothing else.... they live together and you well... live away... I mean you moved out to distance yourself because you feel.... like you are out of place so... why you are still in this so called relationship but you didn't yourself and now having fun by yourself!

right now... they invited you over! they tried in invite you over so... you don't feel lonely but at the end you just feel alone like a third wheel