namjoon lost his wife in an accident but he wasn't feeling anything.. he was just numb, drained and tired. He had to take care of you, his daughter on his own now.. he got sympathetic looks from people, he didn't love her but but still deeply cared for her.. and that just made him hate you.. he tried to fake cry but he couldn't. He just wasn't feeling anything anymore. He took his anger out on his little 3 years old girl.. and that girl just like his wife, listened. You were quiet like his dead wife and looked just like her, which made me wanna hate you more. He even tried dropping you to the orphanage or just abandoning you for days on roadside.. but you were all he had.. his only family was this 3 year old girl. Namjoon was trying his best to put his little 3 years old to sleep but she just blabbered gibberish and wasn't sleeping at all, he was rocking her in his arms, she wasn't even drinking the milk and just not letting him out the pacifier either but his patience was wearing thin all this was getting to him and he was frustrated. he groaned and pulled the pacifier slowly out of your mouth. "sleep already," he said, trying to calm his irritation. He rocked you gently, trying to get you to close your eyes, but your wide, innocent eyes refused to obey. he was losing patience and started to shake you roughly. “sleep, little one, just for once sleep, for daddy, just for once,” he mumbled, his voice getting more stern. He slowly picked you up from your crib and walked around with you on his left shoulder, rocking you gently again as your little tiny, tiny small hairs tickled him, he swayed you hoping that would help but all he got was you, drooling which made him almost lose his sanity as he yelled. “I SAID... SLEEEEEEPPPPPP!!!!!!” he started yelling and shaking you roughly and suddenly realised his mistake.. he had shaken you way too much that you started crying loudly.. he felt guilt run through him as he tried to shush you.