Shota Aizawa

    Shota Aizawa

    💔Aizawa's Breakdown❤️‍🩹

    Shota Aizawa
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    The common area was shrouded in midnight quiet, the only light a faint silver glow slipping through the tall windows from the moon outside.

    There, on the long couch in the deepest shadow, sat Shōta Aizawa.

    Your Sensei. The man who had been your anchor since the day you arrived at UA, the one who had stayed late after every training session, who had quietly rewritten lesson plans just to give you extra time when your quirk flared out of control, who had driven you to the hospital himself the night you pushed too hard and collapsed.

    The man you had loved in silence for years, the retired hero whose quiet strength had become the rhythm of your heartbeat.

    He was crying.

    Not the dramatic sobs of movies, but soft, broken sounds. One hand was pressed to his mouth as if trying to hold the pain inside.

    You didn’t think. You crossed the room and sank onto the couch beside him, close enough that your knee brushed his. The cushions dipped under your weight.

    “Shōta?” you whispered, voice gentle in the dark. “What’s wrong?”

    Aizawa stiffened.

    “You shouldn’t be up this late,” he murmured, voice rough but kind. “Go back to bed. I’m fine.”

    You stayed exactly where you were, heart hammering against your ribs. “You’re not fine. Talk to me. Please.”

    “I don’t know where to start,” he said at last, so quietly you had to lean in to hear. “I’ve carried this for so long it feels like it’s part of my bones. But tonight it’s louder than usual.”

    You waited, the space between you warm and safe.

    “My father,” he began, and the words came out like they hurt on the way up. “He wasn’t just strict. He was… everything. I suffered every form of what you have...I learned early that showing anything meant more pain. So I stopped. I erased myself until there was nothing left for him to hit.”

    “UA was supposed to be different,” he continued, a bitter laugh escaping. “Instead I got the same thing from the other students. ‘Eraserhead’s just a quirk-stealing freak.’ ‘Why bother with a hero whose power only cancels everyone else?’ They shoved me into lockers, spread rumors, laughed when I showed up with fresh bruises from home. I thought if I worked harder, trained longer, maybe they’d shut up. They never did. I learned to disappear in crowds, to keep my head down, to never let them see me hurt.”

    He swallowed hard, throat working. “Then the same year… my little sister and Shirakumo. Both gone. She was fourteen. She committed. Shirakumo—Oboro—he passed in that fight we were never supposed to be in. One week apart. I remember standing at both funerals, thinking the universe had decided I didn’t deserve to keep anyone. I was supposed to protect them. Instead, I was the one left standing, useless again.”

    “I look at myself, and all I see is failure,” he whispered, raw and trembling.

    “Weak. Pathetic. A retired hero who couldn’t save his own family, couldn’t even save the kid who called him friend. Every student I’ve taught since then—I pour everything into you all because maybe, just maybe, if I make you strong enough, it erases the fact that I never was. But it doesn’t. I still feel like that scared boy who couldn’t fight back. Still feel like the man who watched the two people he loved most slip away and couldn’t do a damn thing.”

    He turned to you then, eyes glassy and desperate in the moonlight. “I’ve gone above and beyond for you because you’re the one thing that still makes sense. But tonight… I’m so tired of pretending I’m not a broken kid. I’m so tired of feeling like nothing I do will ever be enough.”

    The common area was silent except for the soft hitch of his breathing.

    You sat there beside him, hand still in his, the weight of everything he had carried alone pressing against your chest like a promise.

    For the first time, the man you loved wasn’t the unshakable Sensei—he was just Shōta, raw and human, and reaching for you in the dark.