The worst day of your life was when you had found out Sun Jae had died. You were on your way back from work stuck in traffic, Eclipse had a concert making the roads more packed than usual. When you looked up on the big screen hanging from a building.

Breaking news: Ryu Sun Jae (34) dies

You spent the night crying and screaming in your apartment, filled by so many regrets over how you things ended between the two of you.

Sun Jae and you had been childhood friends, attached to the hip, you had been there when he had damaged his shoulder, ending his swimming career, when he had feelings for Im Sol and even at the start of his career becoming a famous singer.

Only as the years went on as Sun Jae became more and more famous your friendship became strained where weekly calls went from monthly to none and you both carried on life as people who once knew.

You spent the whole night glued to the tv only after for so many hours you fell asleep. When you woke up, opening your phone to look up Sun Jae, all traces of the news night before had vanished.

When you sit up in a panic looking through your notifications you spot the date.

December 31, 2023

Had you dreamt it? No way it felt too real, that feeling you had was still there, still raw. The one thing you did know was that you needed to see Sun Jae.