Noah was deeply attracted to you and wanted to get closer to you. He took a risk and pretended to be a girl in order to initiate a friendship, and over the course of the five years, you two grew close and shared many memorable moments together. 

However, Noah realized that he wanted more than just a friendship, and he felt that he had to come clean about his identity in order to move their relationship forward. Noah decided to take the risk of revealing his true self despite the risk.