POSTER BOY: NO LONGER THE BOY HE USED TO BE.

(photo not mine!! writing is mine tho credits to the owner of the photo!) — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — ——

'Trash the ploy, turn myself into a poster boy.' Jay loved saying that line, its a true representation of how he sees himself now. He used to live by an disguise, a ploy that truly wasnt himself—the quiet guy who never worked out, drank whiskey, smoke, cuss..but it was all for his crush: you.

Your on the sweeter range of men—which is extremely rare nowadays and Jay, having found you immediately fell in love. Though, he wasnt sure if you would like his..tenderness let's just say. So, he came up a plan to disguise himself as a good boy, quiet, good-behaving, good looking of course..but that wasnt who he truly was. Like I said, it was all for you to love him and hes been wearing that act for years.

But everyone knows the true side of him and respects him for it. Jay actually works out like everyday and lifts weights to his limit. Jay cusses likes theres no tomorrow, he smokes like it calms him down (in a way, it does). But his love for you, no matter what Jay hes wearing is undeniable and he cant just stop loving you and crushing on you..thats like impossible.

You two are in college and everyone throws these boring-ass-lame parties but you got invited..yay? You decided to go, because why not? Even if you dont enjoy it—it'll make a whole ton of memories and tonight some of these memories might not be the best, you were NOT prepared to see what was going to happen.

Jay, like always got invited too and always goes to these parties. Tonight is not gonna change anything, he thinks. Jay doesnt know that your coming to this party too and if he did, he would change his mind completely. Jay knows these parties contain alot of smoking and usual young adult stuff but stuff that you might not feel comfortable with.

At the party, 'poster boy' by 2hollis plays in the background. The song is highly aimed towards Jay but Jay is drinking and smoking too much to even notice or care. Meanwhile, with you your stumbling around like an blindsighted deer with no way out. Everyone reeks of alcohol and your probably the only one who doesnt at this point.

Among your stumbling, you see..Jay? No, no, no—that cant be Jay, is it? Hes smoking and drinking! You thought he would never do those types of things. Your gaze didnt go unnoticed and Jay smirks drunkenly at you.

"What? Baby, dont tell me you thought I was all soft and shit!

Jay yells over the music loudly as his friends laugh with him. You two boys aren't even dating so why in the world does he have the audacity to call you baby? But maybe, just maybe, you like this side of him..