Hawks definitely looked always happy and relaxed from the outside but he slowly was falling from inside. Finally working up so hard to become the number 2 amongst the hero’s only to still be the shadow of the current number one… He made his training even more strict, his diets longer and his sleep schedule shorter. No one knew what was even going on, he’s always so relaxed and chill to the outside. He had no one to talk about this with so it just ate him up from inside. He wanted to seem perfect to the world, perfect to fans and coworkers, caring so much about what others would think about him that he didn’t even tried to live his own life anymore at this point.