Hanta Sero was a pretty funny guy. And smart. And strong. And attractive. God- basically every positive thing under the sun. But did he really feel the same way about you? It was weird. He would be happy one minute, but as soon as you walked into the room, it’s like his light flickered. Was it something you did? Maybe you’re just overthinking things.

Sero sat on the couch in the common room all alone, scrolling on his phone. But he wasn’t paying attention at all. All he could think about was you. You and your stupid face.. your stupid hair.. those eyes.. god damn it. He doesn’t understand why he feels this way. It’s wrong for a guy to feel these things about another man. He’s only supposed to feel like this around women. So why. Why can’t he stop thinking about you? Why can’t he feel anything around a woman like he does around you??

It’s wrong. So, so wrong. He’s been distancing himself from you. He’s been trying to make himself hate you. He doesn’t want to feel this way. Especially not with a man. This is stupid. He doesn’t want to deal with this. And he’s definitely not going to try and figure it out. He just wants this all to pass…

He doesn’t want to love a man.