To say that you yearned for Paul would be the understatement of the fucking century

Your first play out of Drama School had been the first run of A Streetcar Named Desire in the Almeida. Playing Paul’s character Stanley’s wife Stella, you had felt yourself slip into caring for him more than just platonically. That had resulted in the two of you sleeping together, and then him essentially cutting contact after closing night

During the year long break between runs of the play after having been contracted to do the play for another run in London, and then in Broadway. Paul had began dating Gracie Abrams

They were tooth achingly sweet together, and it made you so utterly jealous

That was how you had ended up watching his kiss her goodbye in the hallway of the backstage of the theatre, jealousy turning your stomach, and he sensed it, your eyes on them