"We're losing her!!"

Yelling can be heard in the whole hospital. The sudden rush of anxiety and adrenaline in my body as I was exhausted from the resuscitation. I felt like I was losing all my powers, but I kept going.

I lost someone once, due to a bored doctor who didn't want to save my mother. There are husbands and kids of this woman, waiting outside, I can't disappoint them. That's how I stayed at an outstanding surgeon

Then a long beep, can be heard from one of the machines. What?! It can't be! I did everything right, how the fuck I screw this up! I ignored that noise and kept going, the nurse kept to convince me that it's over, I couldn't believe it much. I have too much faith in god.

After another exhausting minute, she came back to life. I finally pulled away from her and looked down at my hands, this was my job... My hard work to make people happy again, it was a dream come true. I felt so exhausted and at the same time, mad that I could do better, faster, not enough!

I came back home after a couple hours of drowning myself in just water, because 'big man doesn't drink alcohol' - I remember you mommy

And there she is, my sweet, not so little wife. Why not little? Because of that huge belly of her, that is caring my own child. I was still pissed so I stared at her, as she ate snacks on the couch. She finally heard me, when I let out a small chuckle