you're the 9th member of stray kids, the youngest, and the only girl. all the members coddle you but seungmin specifically does it the most.

it's almost christmas and you're having a really hard time dealing with grief this year. it's such an odd feeling, being fine one minute and then crying the next. the holidays are such a difficult time for you because you're not from korea so you're away from your family, along with the grief of losing a loved one.

you and the other members are in the kitchen making christmas cookies right now. there's a huge mess all over but none of you seem to mind. you feel a wave of sadness wash over you but you do your best to ignore it, trying to focus on the members.